I decided to include this entry I wrote on a
private journal about my first time jumping out of a perfectly good
airplane...I was just planning to include it for the experience, but it was fun
finding some of the earliest trickles of the raging personal river I find
myself on now.
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December 14, 2014
Today I went skydiving.
It was a long drive down to Thomaston, but music
took me down the road well. In fact, with my Maui Jim shades on, Scythian on
Pandora, and a date with the sky up ahead, it was one of the more restorative
drives I’ve had in a while.
I got to Skydive Atlanta about half an hour early
and, after patiently waiting while a new registration girl learned the ropes, I
was ushered into the hangar to wait. The building was buzzing with activity: a
muscly dude repacked chutes with occasional grunts along a broad mat stretched
across the floor; two jumpers lay on little trolleys discussing formation
technique; there were even two or three dogs wandering around snuffling at
palms and nudging at helmeted heads. The scattered staff appeared to carry the
joie de vivre I'd expected, all adrenaline and “dude” and complicated
handshakes.
I watched quietly as a young girl and guy get
suited up and have an opening shot to the video of their impending jump. Then
they and about half the hangar cleared out to the tarmac, where they filled the
small but formidable-looking plane just beyond the open hangar doors.
When the time came for my training, I expected it
to be me and a bunch of others, but my tandem instructor, Noah, simply grabbed
me into the preparation room and started giving me the basics one-on-one.
I should say that at no point in the process was I
ever truly afraid or doubtful. I hope it doesn’t speak to some deep-seated
death wish that I didn’t worry at all about the prospect of disaster. On the
contrary, I felt like I spent the training trying with every expression to
convince Noah I didn’t need him to reassure me. But still, I listened carefully
and when Noah told me the few things I’d have to do (kneel at the airplane
door, arch my back when we left, hold my hands up as we fell, and lift my knees
as we landed), those responsibilities became the only things I actually felt
some stress about. Not "would I die?" but "would I get it
wrong?" Noah himself was a delightful skydiving elf, about a foot shorter
than me with a surfer’s blonde hair and a great attitude. If I HAD been freaked
out, I think he’d have dispelled it rather quickly.
Once geared up, I have to say I felt like quite the
bad ass. Whether it’s the full-body jumpsuit or the tightened harnesses (no
comment), it just feels like some badass shit is going down. Noah checked the
chute and then, quick as you please, led me out to be the first to climb into
the now returned and empty plane. The rest of our flight filled out behind me,
all single jumpers. The ones near me were particularly kind and reassuring
about my first trip and matched my enthusiasm when I told them how excited I
was.
Then, in a surprise thrill I hadn’t considered, we
took off while facing backwards, only nominally belted to the plane. I watched
as the airfield disappeared below and smiled back at Noah whenever he shouted
forward facts and encouragement.
The first of our fellow jumpers got off super early
in an effort to qualify for a certain higher level of certification. Noah said
he essentially had enough time to right himself and rip. That was a little
terrifying to think about, and I was thankful when he soon afterward clipped
himself to me and cinched us together.
We climbed and climbed until, at last, the door
opened again. At this moment, I got to be a part of something cool. Each of the
jumpers in front of me turned to each other and started giving a quick
handshake, a slip and pound, before turning to another person to do the same.
And shortly after I realized what was happening, the four jumpers nearest me
offered a hand to do the same. I’m sure it’s all commonplace for them, but it
felt like a true bonding gesture, whether it’s meant to convey a shared sense
of awesomeness or a tacit recognition that, in a rare, rare instance, we could
be the last people someone sees. I don’t mean to be a worrier with the latter…I
actually find that explanation more comforting.
Of course, my pulse did climb as the others started
dropping out and Noah pushed us closer to the open door. After everyone else
had left, I knelt with him behind me, my knees at the lip of the opening, with
only open air beneath us. Then, as he told me he would, Noah rocked me back,
forward, back, and then out. I arched back as instructed, while my brain tried
to take in the fact that we were flipping through the air at 14,000 feet and
looking up at the plane we’d just left.
The free fall once we righted was thrilling, but
also a little intense. It's nothing that would deter me from doing it again,
but I definitely felt the air ripping past my neck. All the more reason to shed
some pounds perhaps.
Soon, though, Noah pulled our chute and we came to
a slow glide above the world. It was gorgeous beneath us, all green fields and
water, blue sky and sun. It was a strange delight to be drifting so high above
the world and to be having a conversation with another person.
Noah spun us a few times around, then circled us
over the airstrip. My friend Amber had told me to prepare for some deep
thinking, and sure enough, I thought, "If I'm not scared of jumping out of
a plane, then why the hell should I be afraid of any of the other choices I
want to make in life?" I will figure everything out in time. If anything,
the drive today made me think about spending my sabbatical out on the road, traveling
the highways for days at a time, staying with friends, just making my way
through this country. I’m thrilled to try it.
We came in for an exciting landing back at the
airfield, drifting over the plane that had taken us up. As we were climbing,
Noah and the others had discussed the fact that I could no longer say I landed
in every airplane I ever took off in. That thought charmed me and I almost
wanted to stick my tongue out at it as it taxied in…as though it hadn’t
intended to release me out the side.
A few clips and de-gearing later and Noah presented
me with my jump certificate…even now I have no idea where it is. I didn’t get a
video either. I just waved at him as I left the hangar and got in my car. The
purpose of jumping today wasn’t to document it, to prove it to anyone, or to do
something with friends. The point was for me to go out into my world and
experience it myself. To show myself I could do something. If I learned
anything today, it’s that I don’t have a lot of fear in my heart. And that is truly
something interesting to find out.
Thanks to Noah Slagle and everyone at Skydive Atlanta!
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